Tuesday, October 07, 2003
So why is it that life isn't easy anymore?
Waxing philosophical:
Did people in "the old days" not have any problems surviving day to day? How come almost all my friends online have a blog... and they all NEED to blog too? Things are so complicated its scary.
So can someone explain to me? why aint life easy even if it is just occasionally? Why is everything so complicated? Is it just that we didn't realise things were this shitty way back when? Or is it just that life has become so much more technical and stuff? Is there really more trouble now?
When I was in school *gets out her walking stick and her grey wig* back in the old days...LOL... I was the "normal" one of my group of friends. My parents are happily married after 30 something years, I had a pretty good home life and I was loved. In comparison to my friends... who were children of abusive parents, adopted, abused and mistreated in many ways. Was it the same 20-30 years ago? were kids lives back then so complex as they are now? Or was the "norm" more like my life and there was only a few children with problems?
/waxing off.
Back to real life!
My friend who took the overdose (a month or so back) is back in hospital, she sms's me when I was sitting out the front of the hospital on Saturday afternoon, well I am starting to get a cold I think so I SMS back that I will come visit her the next day before work. Well... by the next day I am feeling way sick, I call work in the morning and tell em I aren't coming, my nose is running like a tap and making my eyes water so much I can barely see. So now I feel really bad, it takes me to midday to SMS my friend and tell her I can't come cause I got a cold (not exactly gonna go to visit someone in hospital when I have just called to say I can't go to work at the same hospital). Feeling really bad cause I think she really needs a visit from a friend!
So I get this cold... At my work you can take one day off without having a medical certificate and still get payed. Monday I was no better really so I went to the doctor, she promptly told me no I was not dying though I freakin felt like I was. She certificated(or should that be certified??LOL) me for yesterday today and tomorrow...YAY! So I call work when I get home to say I am not coming in for Tuesday (which is now today). They say while they are on the phone, we have noticed that your contract runs out at the end of October, do you want us to extend it for a while? I say... no thanks! Like I really want to keep working at a place that makes me feel like shit every time I go.
Other thing I am feeling kinda like shit about is that I have done no work towards my PDP (professional development portfolio) at all this year pretty much. Was just really sick of having to write up everything. So now I gotta rush to write up all the shit that I have done this year...YAY... who would fucking be a nurse?
and on that note... I think I will go..
On a by note... sorry K if I said something wrong... ya left kinda quickly and my babbling fingers know no shame somedays... I just come out with things without thinking about what I am really saying! So my apologies! love you!
Waxing philosophical:
Did people in "the old days" not have any problems surviving day to day? How come almost all my friends online have a blog... and they all NEED to blog too? Things are so complicated its scary.
So can someone explain to me? why aint life easy even if it is just occasionally? Why is everything so complicated? Is it just that we didn't realise things were this shitty way back when? Or is it just that life has become so much more technical and stuff? Is there really more trouble now?
When I was in school *gets out her walking stick and her grey wig* back in the old days...LOL... I was the "normal" one of my group of friends. My parents are happily married after 30 something years, I had a pretty good home life and I was loved. In comparison to my friends... who were children of abusive parents, adopted, abused and mistreated in many ways. Was it the same 20-30 years ago? were kids lives back then so complex as they are now? Or was the "norm" more like my life and there was only a few children with problems?
/waxing off.
Back to real life!
My friend who took the overdose (a month or so back) is back in hospital, she sms's me when I was sitting out the front of the hospital on Saturday afternoon, well I am starting to get a cold I think so I SMS back that I will come visit her the next day before work. Well... by the next day I am feeling way sick, I call work in the morning and tell em I aren't coming, my nose is running like a tap and making my eyes water so much I can barely see. So now I feel really bad, it takes me to midday to SMS my friend and tell her I can't come cause I got a cold (not exactly gonna go to visit someone in hospital when I have just called to say I can't go to work at the same hospital). Feeling really bad cause I think she really needs a visit from a friend!
So I get this cold... At my work you can take one day off without having a medical certificate and still get payed. Monday I was no better really so I went to the doctor, she promptly told me no I was not dying though I freakin felt like I was. She certificated(or should that be certified??LOL) me for yesterday today and tomorrow...YAY! So I call work when I get home to say I am not coming in for Tuesday (which is now today). They say while they are on the phone, we have noticed that your contract runs out at the end of October, do you want us to extend it for a while? I say... no thanks! Like I really want to keep working at a place that makes me feel like shit every time I go.
Other thing I am feeling kinda like shit about is that I have done no work towards my PDP (professional development portfolio) at all this year pretty much. Was just really sick of having to write up everything. So now I gotta rush to write up all the shit that I have done this year...YAY... who would fucking be a nurse?
and on that note... I think I will go..
On a by note... sorry K if I said something wrong... ya left kinda quickly and my babbling fingers know no shame somedays... I just come out with things without thinking about what I am really saying! So my apologies! love you!
7:40 AM
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