ok.. so I haven't posted for a while. Honestly, I have been too worried about going over things to. I had to go back to work on Friday night and I had a horrible birth in which i did multiple things wrong and I kicked myself for the next 3 days about. I basically didn't sleep well at all after it, nor for the next 2 nights, and I was kicking myself all the time i was awake about it. Couldn't really eat for the next 48hrs either, and feeling sick on and off for the next couple of days.
I realize I did things wrong, and when I thought back over it I have NO idea why I did things the way i did, they just seem idiotic now. The outcome was ok, the baby and mum were fine. It was ok, still didn't mean i didn't kick myself about it.
*sighs* Anyways, had a talk with my mom about it, and she pretty much helped me to get over the kicking myself part. I can't do anything about it now cept learn from it for next time (like there is gonna be a next time hah).
Robbie(my brother) came back over the holidays (Easter) and it was great to have the company, he brought back 11 books for me to read in a series which is great. So I have been reading to pass the time instead of sleeping.
On other news , the toe is pretty much all better, the skin came off the bit where I cut it when i kicked it, and it looks fine. It feels much better and I am walking normally though it gives a really wierd "zing" sorta feeling when i step on it firmly.
Well i think I have rambled long enough
May have more to write after work this afternoon.
Laters

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