Thursday, June 09, 2005
Not necessarily my teeth hurt anymore, but my mouth feels pretty much cut to shreds, have one particular part of my braces that is just wire, cause it goes over my baby tooth which will be removed and the big girl tooth will be brought down in a month and a bit, both my top and bottom lips and my tounge get caught in that spot and are getting cut to death. I bought some bonjeala today which is an anaesthetic gel to for baby's who are teething... hope to heck it helps.
I fucked up at work again, *sighs* I did the same thing I have done before turned the wrong IV up, it was sitting beside the other iv line that i was sposed to change. Fortunately I realised fairly quickly this time and all the problems associated with it were averted. I am just amazed that I am that fucking stupid. How the hell could I do it again? I was supposed to be being extra aware of things cause it was such a mammoth stuff up the first time. I could have killed someone. Thats the totally fucked up bit about being a nurse, you do the smallest thing wrong... someone dies. In business, you fuck up a multi million dollar deal, you lose lots of money, but pretty much 99% of the time people don't die because of it. Nursing is not a good career, it is just work, pretty much thankless, looking after people who poop and puke and bleed all over you.
Nursing is saved by one thing... that occasional day you have that is nice, the staff are nice, you have patients who at least appear to really appreciate what you have done for them, and you make a connection with one or two of them that leaves both of you laughing.
Damn it, I have to balance every thought i say huh? I can't help trying to look at both sides of things, trying to find the good side. Thats one of the big problems I have with people who get involved in my life, I listen, because inevitably they come to me to lay their problems down, and while I try not to solve their problems, I always have to give them the bright side of the situation. In that way K and I are opposites that complete each other, she sees the downside of everything, and present with the up side of things, and it all evens out in the wash.
Means I don't get much of a chance to present the down side of my personality though, cause I am always trying to point out the upside of everything. I even rationalise it out with myself, I tell myself the upside of things it makes it so I can't express the down side. Sad girl I am.
Sound like yoda I do
Do or do not do, there is no try.
Laters
I fucked up at work again, *sighs* I did the same thing I have done before turned the wrong IV up, it was sitting beside the other iv line that i was sposed to change. Fortunately I realised fairly quickly this time and all the problems associated with it were averted. I am just amazed that I am that fucking stupid. How the hell could I do it again? I was supposed to be being extra aware of things cause it was such a mammoth stuff up the first time. I could have killed someone. Thats the totally fucked up bit about being a nurse, you do the smallest thing wrong... someone dies. In business, you fuck up a multi million dollar deal, you lose lots of money, but pretty much 99% of the time people don't die because of it. Nursing is not a good career, it is just work, pretty much thankless, looking after people who poop and puke and bleed all over you.
Nursing is saved by one thing... that occasional day you have that is nice, the staff are nice, you have patients who at least appear to really appreciate what you have done for them, and you make a connection with one or two of them that leaves both of you laughing.
Damn it, I have to balance every thought i say huh? I can't help trying to look at both sides of things, trying to find the good side. Thats one of the big problems I have with people who get involved in my life, I listen, because inevitably they come to me to lay their problems down, and while I try not to solve their problems, I always have to give them the bright side of the situation. In that way K and I are opposites that complete each other, she sees the downside of everything, and present with the up side of things, and it all evens out in the wash.
Means I don't get much of a chance to present the down side of my personality though, cause I am always trying to point out the upside of everything. I even rationalise it out with myself, I tell myself the upside of things it makes it so I can't express the down side. Sad girl I am.
Sound like yoda I do
Do or do not do, there is no try.
Laters
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